It's crazy to think I haven't blogged in 6 months and I've dreaded this blog post pretty much since then. This post is long overdue and here are some things you should know before you read on...
2. This post is very personal.
3. My thoughts are a little jumbled and I've rewritten this post over and over because I don't feel any of my words do it justice.
Here we go...
On December 20, 2012 my friend's little girl, Lenya Avery Lusko, went to be with Jesus due to sever asthma attack. This sweet, sassy, spunky, caring, adorable, 5 year old whom I LOVE deeply went to heaven.
It was/is devastating. Lenya is Levi (my pastor) and Jennie's (my dear friend) daughter. My heart aches because I miss the Lenya Lion, but my heart also hurts to see my sweet friend and pastor go through so much pain.
For years they have been like family to me and they are a BIG part of why I'm in Montana.
I love this family heart and soul.
I don't really know what to say.
It was just too hard to blog for so long and still sort of is, but I wanted to post something.
Since Lenya went to heaven it's been one of the hardest times of my life and yet God has been and
still is SO faithful. He has been my ultimate comfort, strength, hope, and anchor.
I don't know what I would do without Him in my life.
The Lusko's faith, honesty, and openness through everything has been inspiring and I urge you to watch Lenya's Celebration of Life here. It is full of HOPE.
Pastor Levi and Jennie have said on numerous occasions,
"We are hurting, but we have hope.
We miss her fiercely, but we trust God fully."
Pastor Greg Laurie said something that really stuck with me,
Pastor Greg Laurie said something that really stuck with me,
"We mourn deeply because we love deeply. At the same time we don't mourn hopelessly, but hopefully knowing we'll see them again."
Oh what a GLORIOUS day that will be!!!
My favorite picture of Lenya and I from 2010
Last week I got a tattoo.
It holds so many meanings. Mainly that Christ is my anchor.
Hebrew 6:19 says, "This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast"
It also reminds me of Lenya and how much I love and miss her,
but I REJOICE that I will see her again.
It reminds be to pray for the Luskos.
Lastly, it reminds me that life is short and I want to live every moment to its fullest
and glorify God in everything I do.
If you want to know more about this HOPE I have, visit here.
Also, Pastor Levi wrote a post yesterday called Half a Year in Heaven that shares his heart, hurt, and hope.
I do look forward to sharing some fun creative things I've been up to,
but I've had a bit of a priority shift and won't be blogging too often
or on any regular schedule (against all pro bloggers advice, ha).
For those of you who follow me on Instagram or Facebook and have been following what's been going on,
thank you for your kind words and prayers. They mean more than you could ever know.
Please continue to pray for Pastor Levi, his sweet wife Jennie, and their families.
Carrie, I'm so sorry for your loss - my thoughts are with you and Lenya's family <3
ReplyDeleteThank you Kerri.
DeleteOhhh Carrie, Well done.
ReplyDeleteLove you Berni!
DeleteHugs and Prayers will continue to go out to you Carrie....For you and Levi and Jenni and the girls!
ReplyDeleteThanks Teri. So thankful for you.
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